FIST BUMP

I want to give a HUGH FIST BUMP to all my working moms!! Working and caring for a young child at home has to be the most tiring, mentally exhausting, guilt-consuming, time escaping without warning venture of my life. For any working-mom, it has to be hard to juggle work priorities and providing for your family with spending quality (energized) time with your loved ones. Now add in having a daughter that requires extra 'special' attention to the mix. Most days, I just feel so down right guilty for being at work and missing her growing and therapies and now even some doctor appointments. It just doesn't feel right. I am mom and I need to be there for those times, EVERY TIME. I have an awesome husband and an awesome nurse that are helping me through it all, but that guilty feeling. Its hard to swallow. I teach so I work with kids all day long. I work with needy, rude, loud, soul-sucking middle-schoolers (with the occasional sweetheart thrown in the mix) all day long. It is more draining than running a marathon with preschoolers at recess right after an art activity. Sophia deserves all of my attention and energy. Though, I will say no matter how hard of a day I have had at work when I come home to Sophia signing she missed me and giving me the sweetest slobbery kiss ever, I can feel the life creep back into my soul. How do you working moms do it? I guess I am doing it...With little sleep and dirty laundry. The mess can wait but memory making happens now. Someone tell me I am doing the right thing and everything will be OK. Someone please tell me that Sophia will always love me and think of me as her number one most important person in her life. I will just be crushed if she resents that I work. I can definitely tell she was kind of mad at me at the beginning because she would ignore me a little when I got home. How do you working moms not get jealous of your childcare providers? I guess it is a benefit that Sophia loves hers so much because I would feel awfully bad if she was crying when I left her or when she saw her nurse. Either way, I guess I just want to give you all a huge WAY TO GO! You rock super moms kinda fist bump to the world!