Today was a good good day. Sophia is still in recovery and being kept mostly sedated in order to help her heal. It was very nice to see her so comfortable today and breathing easy. It was reassuring that we made the right decision with the trach. I have a feeling in time I will hardly even notice the foreign tubes sticking out of my sweet girl. Today in fact, I could hardly keep my eyes off of her cute little face. It has been several weeks that I have been able to see her face unobstructed by tape and tubes. She is just so perfect and I love kissing those little lippies and cheekies! I am also so excited to be able to hold her soon. I still can not hold her for several more days while she is healing. So that is hard but we love holding hands. This has been the most difficult 7 weeks of my life (our lives) but I can not imagine another day without Sophia Kay. No matter how much John and I hurt or how angry we get with things with cannot change to make her life easier, when we look into her eyes...we melt and OUR whole world makes sense to us. If being a mother means always knowing your heart is walking around on the outside of your body...then I am glad to have placed it with Sophia. I am glad that our two hearts have formed such an amazing little lady. Sophia is John and I's true testament of our love for each other and for her.
Amanda,
ReplyDeleteYou and John are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. I couldn't imagine, being a mother, the ups and downs that you have had to experience. I pray for a quick recovery for that beautiful girl of yours so that you can hold her tight!
Holding all of you in prayer.
ReplyDeleteThere are probably times that you feel very alone right now, but please know that there are many people at Triton praying for you guys right now.
ReplyDeleteAllie Spegal